January 2010
Dear Sugarplum Fairy;
Dear Sugarplum fairy,
Every single time I write to you, I find myself crying out. Today I feel like a brand new. I was not really sure what happened, but something sure did hit me in my head. Do you remember the time I got hit? It was insane. I barely dared to even recall of that day. My cheek hurt so much and so did my heart. I felt both, physically and mentally, in pain.
So anyway, someone...
You Know;
Happy Birthday. Happy Birthday to me. I celebrate my birthday on a daily basis, but I onky turn a year older ever 22 August.
I am done being to all you people. I done being tough. I am done pretending. I done shouting vulgarities. I am done making fun of all of you. I am going back to who I was. But I still be as friendly as ever.
Currently, I hung up a phon ecall with MFarhan and just...
Food Remedy;
I clearly remember telling Mummy to get me Glucose so that I would not have to eat; that was about two years ago.
Not that I do not want to eat. But my tummy is just so full of stress and pain. I was telling mummy to get me those tubes of drips so that every night, while I sleep, I will be able to feel my tummy asleep.
Check;
Time Check: 12.23AM
Hello Sunday. I am still fresh awake. Would you like to give me a call and tell me how was your Saturday?
Well, mine was fine. There were Mady, Fariz. Then there were, Haiks and pFarhan. Then lastly there was MFarhan. Hahah! I had alot of visitors today. I have been sitting att this very position since about 11am. hahah! Does my ass hurts?? Not as much as my Friday intense...
tired
pamielious:
did innovation the whole day. finally is like finish the web.. now gonna do the REPORT and PPT. TIRED! F-ing tired. shaked hand with hubby. everythings fine already. so glad abt it.i am trying hard enough to get back to him. i know i can. herdy will tell me this, dun think abt it dun think abt it dun think abt it. hitting our own forehead. :D
i miss sch. cos sch work will let me...
All You;
You made me cry when I did not had to; I am happy.
You say Goodbye, but you are always back.
You have plans that will work out, but never really had the chance to make it happen.
You told me you end work late, but you popped at my doorstep 15minutes later.
I cry over you because now you are gone.
Back Then;
Back then, when you and I had plans. They went very unplanned. We had plans to do and this and that. I was and am excited.
Today I had my life replanned.
I will be going on a vacation real soon.
I will be going to that HighTea-to-die-for at whichever hotel; I will dress up and put on my pretty heels.
I will go for ice skating soon. Real soon.
I will start swimming and tennis when JD is free....
Unwell;
I am so worked up. I did not attend school today. I feel sick in the tummy and in the head.
I promised my teammates I woould show them a fruitful production tomorrow and i am not breaking that promise.
I need everything to be the way it was.
Tire Me Out;
Week 15 of school. As much as I love the number of weeks to increase, the intensity increase too. I am sick and tired of school work. Every single day, my face only tells you one thing, PROJECT. Either that or tests. Try chatting or texting me and my answer will always be, “I am doing project.”
Amazingly, today I ran out of energy to a huge extend; Despite my early nap last night.
...
Safe Journey;
Hi Uncle, Yishun please.
Thank you Uncle, drive safely.
Ouh God Ouh Lord, I thought I might not make it home considering the fact that the taxi driver drove so quickly as thoughh I rushed him. Either that, or there was a a headless guy riding a horse chasing the taxi I was in. hahah!! And yes, I actually told him to drive safely after I paid him. haha!
So anyway, today was a long day...
To You Too;
Goodmorning my fellow Citizens of herdadwiana.tumblr.
I would liketo tell all you people that I woke up extra early for school today because I accidentally slept infront of my laptop really early and I dragged myself in and tuck myself under the comforter and hit of to WinterWonderland pretty quickly.
I was amazed that I did not wakeup in the middle of the night this time considering the fact...
Tired;
I am so stressed up and tired and everything bad all at the same time.
School is starting to rush me once again.
Friends;
I hear stories about what a n ass friends my friends have and I very glad I found true friends around me. There might me that point of time where there will be downs, but in the end of the day, true friends will still stand by you. It is amazing what friends can do.
They entertain, they love and they’ll stand by you regardless of how strong the wind is blowing us all. I am in love with...
I Am Sorry;
My freinds, I am sorry for being such a trouble. I am sorry to be a heavy duty rain around all of you. now, all my plans have changed. I will list them out. :) Not right now, but I am going to have a bomb on 2010. I do not need a guy in my life, I am independent on my own. :) Thank you mummy for raising me up to be this strong.
Mummy, I love you. Daddy, you can stop tickling my tummy now, I am...
FUCK I HURT MY PALM FROM HITTING THE WINDOW.
Out of Confusion;
You played with my heart. You played me with your games. You never loved me, You never did.
Its all clear now. All MFarhan needed and wanted was my materials, my money. You made it clear today. I amm glad to be out of the whirl pool game you dragged me in.
People, I have to move on because MFarhan made it clear. It was exactly 9pm. All he blamed was the past. I will move on. You have dragged me...
YEA YOU!;
Hey you! *points at you.
Yea you! The one that only turn to me for money, STOP IT! I ain’t giving any anymore!
I am no longer a fool. We used to be Bonnie n Clyde. But that was then. Hahah!
Were we dangerously in Love? yes back then.
Were there MORE THAN WORDs? Definitely. Pictures are definitely more than words.
It is funny how you tell me over the phone it wouldn’t last.
*Ouh...
Thank You;
I thank my parents for everything they have done for me. To Mom, OMG!! I Love The Purple Dress With That Bling On The Bow! OMG!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!
SO PEOPLE!! Where’s the next party at?!! I am so ready! Its time to party. O0o. o0o.
And all you idiots who laughed at mme because I stayed home every single time, Kuala Lumpur here I come. In March, TOKYO here we come!!! I am f-ing excited...
Its True;
For now I am just very greatful to have a caring and loving family. I have the bestest bestfriend ever. I really cannot ask for anything more than what I have now. Money is just a bonus for joy. And E.Brat was right. Money is nothing as too compare to CareandLoveandHappiness.
I Am Still Around;
Me: Just so you know. I am over you. You proved me wrong, you proved all my friends and family wrong. We thought you were mature. To know you slept with another girl you barely know, is not like you. All you tryna do is hurt me. Was i hurt? I was plain disappointed with you. Just because other guys does it, doesn't mean you have to. Don't be afraid to write your own love story, because it might turn out better than the ones you've heard from your friends :) be yourself. Get rid of the hurt pain anger you have on me. Forget about me. Treat her like a lady. I know you. This ain't the you.
Aaron: I teared while reading that b. Its true. That is not me.
Me: You cant call me that. All I want you to do is be you. Tell her the real you. Tell her you hate soccer, but you'll love soccer because you love her and she'll be touched. Tell her you've been trying to stop smoking for a very long, & you should stop now. Your health will be affected and its a huge concern for me, & definitely Mel. I care for the both of you. But Aaron, you have disappointed me so much in just about 2weeks. You have to show her the real you. You don't have to impress her, how long do you want to pretend. Like you said, You want a girlfriend that you can marry to be your wife. If she does not like you for the real you, then its just plain pointless. Just be yourself. Get rid of the pain hurt I have given you. Because Mel deserves to be treated like a real lady too.
Aaon: I still *like you like I always do.
Me: You can't say that. Please stop it. You are just going to hurt me in the end of this conversation. You should try to forget me. Mel is your new storybook. You have to keep that in mind.
Aaron: I miss you warmth.
Me: Haha! You know she's warmer. :)
Dear Aaron, no matter how far we are, we seem to be close. You looked out for you then, and I am still looking out for you till today. I know you since Secondary 2, you cannot hide from me.
Bring Be Higher;
*first things first. I love my long eyelashes. Are you jealous? haha. :D
It is amazing how powerful one can bring you to realise everything that you are blind to see. Do recall having your friends to continuely tell you that they care for you and blabla, well, some of them do and while the rest could not be bother but was just trying to be nice to you. haha. I am greatful to only trust those...
Hard Day Work;
YOu know how it feels that when you suddenly have nothing coming in between, you tend to promised everyone that you will have a day out with them. Well, today was my day. I was suppose to have Driver’s but I bailed on it. haha. So I was supposed to head down to get decorations for Jeslin’s party with Haiks and eunice, but I bailed on them. Only because Rose asked me out. I love her and...
Two Ton Tests;
I am goinf to overcom today and at the same time try my best in boht tests. C# you are killing me. ITEnginnering, your theory are killer theories, but I’lll still rank Fundamentals Of Networking the worst module to study EVER. Killer module to the core.
Anyway, I Know What You Know. So basically I know everything. :)
Today will be another day with my lovely camera in school and this time...
Great News;
I suppose I had a great day studying with my classmates today. It was dang stressful to the core. OMG Haaakim,I so pitied you for the boy/girl to have canceled tuition on you. Today Rose was being such a silly goose with me with her useful HAMLESS tips. hahah!! I have a huge test tomorrow morning and I have not even started on it. Then again, I am worked out. I am so stressed up. Project Due...
FUN DAY!
pamielious:
WOOOO~~ today stayed in sch with my classmates. wanted to study for french with Adeline.. BUT! tmr is CSHARP LABTEST 2~ so….. we including Haikal, Herdy, jeslin, Lyn, Justin etc… were jus trying SO hard to do on the csharp~ (we didnt make it till the last min!)
Herdy brought her cam here. so we started to camwhore. LOL! with my LOvELY shades. XD
we had be chit chating among...
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Daily #1;
Today I brought my camera too school and all my classmates was so On. haha! Only because we were sick of C#. We could barely concentrate on our C#. arrgh! hahah! :D
Hehe.
Hehe. Last night was a bomb. I had so much fun. Teehee.
You Just Had To;
as much as I just said I had a bomb day Aaron decided to ruin it. We made a deal, I gave him perfume and he’d pass me Teddy. But it was more like I gave him perfume and he gave me nothing.
I am done being nice to other and be fooled by others. You hurt me so much Aaron. WHy couldn’t you just let me be happy.
Today was a Bomb;
Somehow for God knows why. I have been receiving calls from unknown for the past months, and it was usually a miss call. So I did not bother to call them up. So today in class, that number called again and it was the HelpDesk from NYP. THEY FUCKING FOUND MY LOST THUMBDRIVE!!! I was so dang excited to head doen to level four to collect my thumbdrive. hehe. I am so very happy my long lost thumbdrive...
“All I do is hurt you again”
Smile With Me; *best days ever
Thiss are a few of the best days in my life. There are more, but that is alll I have in my laptop, the rest are in my desktop. Smile with me and we both will have the bestest days in our life together.
Buzzzzz;
Ouh Yamagucci, please be reminded that it is Hyrunn’s Birthday today.
Hyrunn, now the only 17 years old is Haaakim.
Ouh please Hyrunn, bring me on a shopping spree and we’ll get broke together.
haha!
Happy 18th Hyrunn!!
Okayokay. Before I end, I would like to let you know that I have been using the same Message Tone on my cellphone since my 16th birthday. I’ll upload the...
Imagine;
I have plans to dance to “Already Gone by Kellry Clarkson” on the rooftop of esplande with who ever that is willing to give a hand to slow dance with.
I want to travel to New Zealand once again and stare at those shooting stars and wish upon them, hoping some day they will all come through.
I have dreams to get my mummy her very own bunglow. She is a hardcore plant lover and she...
Just so you know;
Yesterday you asked, “Have baeisely grew taller?”
Well, the answer is, a little I think.
Now, she is about 1cm taller than the average retangualr pillow we rest out heads on.
Just so you know. :D
Herdz, Positive;
You know how girls can be very fickled minded??
Well,I think I am one of them. As much as I want to be unique, being fickled is all I have been since young. I could clearly remember MomDad rushing me at the titbits section because I was so fickled. In the end, they got me both that Yupi Gummy sweet and that Kinder Surprise. haha! Back then, Kinder Surprise is the BOMB. I love the SURPRISE part....
It Is Much Clearer Now;
Right now I am feeling much better. Reallt I ain’t lying. I had an hour thirty minutes talk with MFarhan early this morning. I suppose it was a mature talk and what not. We told each other our own sides of story and we understood each other.
So yea. I feel so guilty for Misha. Because when I was on the phone with him, she was calling him a couple of times. Trust me, i didn’t know...
Heads Up;
I could clearly recall myself having my head down while I walk about 5years ago. I really have no idea why. I suppose I felt low for myself. As I in, I was a loser and am a loser.
Till a guy camme by. I remembered that walk in the park. the very first time he wanted to company home. He would use those big rough index finger and pushed my head higher to look straight. But my head went down back...
Im Over Him;
His date. haha. Pretty huh.
out of town;
F- SINGAPORE! LETS GO JAPAN!
*Then again, I really want that Switzerland France trip.
We Girls;
Its started off with late goodnights and ended off with “BookBookBook!” haha!
8am was the time we both had to wake up, however we were still on the bed when the clock strikes 8.45am. haha! I mean, it is a Saturday for God Sake. haha!
We were supposed to meet up at 10am, but 10.30am was the time we met.
We had breakfast, we ate slowly. At the same time we challenged PLOCK! hahah! I...
Forgive Me Please;
hello Andy.
We need to talk. Well, actually I need to talk to you. I want to apologise and lay it down for you properly. I am not any where close to you and the only way I get to see you is when you are at SSDC. I barely know your phone number, nor where to get them.
I am not a bitch. I am not an asshole to leave our friendship over a text message.
So I really want to lay it down for you, and I...
“Is it safe to say I am happy and doing fine?”
Akward Situation;
Its rather akward to know know many of my friends are getting attached at the same moment. Its like so sudden and the whole bunch of “Used To Be Date” are now their BF/GF. I hear their love stories and got jealous, if only I was back to those ouh so sweet moments.
Anywho, Happy 18Th Bdae Nuraini. Now we can make Haaakim feel akward because he is the only 17 years old.
In the car,...
Try Sleeping With A Broken Heart - Alicia Keys
Pull Me Away;
I am still comtemplating if I should post up large the Ouh So Hurtful picture.
I clearly recalled having lunch with Haaakim and Noni, when Noni said, “…PD….ends before NS”.
I said, “Sorry sorry. What again?”.
She said, “My PD teacher said that every relationship will end before NS.”
I and Haaakim just left our mouth wide open because we were...
Kawanku;
Hello Hyrun! I was so glad to get to me you in the end. Seriously, I feel like trying that natural tootbrush thingy. haha!! So cheap. And yea! That LOVE Body Mist, smells delicious. Very alike with the Victoria’s Secret’s. YesYes! Shopping! But not right now, cannot bring Haaakim, later he pull us away for the cashier. hahah! :) Your parents like so drama larhhh. hahah! =D
Wanie!! Im...